Forest~Joyce

I damned pissed off today lor... How could they keep changing plans last minute... It's like we practice the drill display liao, juz need to amend the timing then can le then they say dun want, instead they let the cadets perform some combat skills thingy which i find it super lame lor... At least drill display better ma...We spent the whole sat morning to put it together de and now all our efforts went down the drain... I am not pissed by anyone, it's just that this is our last cca open house le, i just want to do something like the drill display and not walk around asking ppl to join np... It's like doing the drill display is very meaningful to me lor... At least i have done something for np on my last cca open house at anderson...
Never mind... At least still got the annual camp...I will do my best to plan it with the others to make the camp the best one ever, different from the ones in the past... Then i can easily step down feeling that i done my best...
Forget to mention, it's friday the 13th today...The legendary black friday...No wonder so much things happened today...

Bought a new school bag yesterday at power nine!! A pink one and it's those cloth type material, one bad thing is that it does not have many comparments but i still like it anyways...Hahax... Finally can change school bag le!! The school bag that i was using lasted for 1 and a half years and i have been using the same type of bag for 3 years!! What i meant is that it's two different bag that look totally the same except for the colours.I got the bags from my uncle who got them from free and he had loads at that time...Ended up with me using the ugly bag for 3 whole years of my secondary school life...It's not really ugly la, but it's not really suitable for girls lor... I have to do that coz my mom say since its free why waste??Somemore can save money...
I also realised something in this few years, everytime i want to buy something, i will keep asking my mom to buy but in the end i don't get it even if it's buying with my own money... It's like the more i ask the more she don't want buy give me. Now, i know how what to do to let her let me buy the stuff i want usually with my own money!! Look, don't that sound ridiculous?I can't even use my own money on my own will...I have to seek permission before i can use them...If i buy stuff secretly, normally will get scolded or the stuff will end up in the bin...I am like going to be 16 this year... If i am like primary sch ok la... But sec 4 liao lei...Still treat me like 3 year old... Want to go out also must depend on her mood...Haiz...I really need freedom, and now u guys know what is the freedom i need.
kkz, blog till here today...Late le, tmr still got sch...

A Tired Soul
I am getting tired these days...It's like I am tired of having to put up a smile everyday and act as if I am very happy every single day...Why is it always to be me who's the one to be a listening ear to my friends and I am the one who gives advices most of the time not easy to be able to do all these, it's very tiring as time goes by.
Finally, I can feel the stress, in the past I just ignore the stress but not now.This time round the stress is just too much to handle...I am confused as time goes by...I don't know what I am doing...I need to find a way to let out my stress or else I am going to break down soon...I really need someone to listen to my problems and help me with them I doubt that there's anyone who can help me with this as I don't think there's anyone who can understand what I meant.No one will be able to understand the life I am going through.No one can understand how I feel...
I am just a nobody...I am not needed, I am just there for convenience.Even if i am gone, no one will notice, life will still go on for the others.The world will continue to go round the axis.This is just so sad, don't you guys think so?

First post of the year 2006!!! A crucial year for people who are taking 'o' levels this year. I just have to remind myself that 'o' levels is coming soon, so i will put my heart and soul into studying.
I realised that i had this layout for ages, but who cares, i love this layout and so far i can't find another one to replace this, so peeps, you will have to bear with the same old stuff though it a new year, a new beginning but certains things still remained the same no matter how many years passed, don' you guys agree?
Well, today was the second day of school, and the first official day for lessons.First thing in the morning, got to know some bad news but well since you have to go on with life no matter what why not just look on to the bright side?So who cares if i got demoted from Band 3a to 3b, anyway it's just a few marks difference though that few marks make a big difference.At least my eng teacher is not the current band 3a teacher, not saying the she not a good teacher, she is a good one but experience tells me that she's one boring teacher.Anyways, i knew ages ago that i am weak in the english language and yet my dream is to be an author, now how ironic is that?

Got quite good maths and chem teacher and chinese remains the same.History, mr yong as usual, ss, quite a good teacher too.Geog, got a teacher famous for producing A1s, hope that apply to me too.Now, guess who teaching my class for physics???*Drumrolls*My class is so damn lucky to have the DM to teach us physics this year.I can imagine the guys getting caught for not being properly attired, missing nametags, hair and all kind of stuff every physics lesson now.Guess how fun is that?Hahax...

Currently, sitting at the second row, right in front of the board, so should be able to concentrate more on my work right, of course i make sure i do that...Let's see it's like 9 to 10 months to 'o' levels... That is not much you know, so i dun really have time for fun this year, except once in a while...You see, it's not easy to have a break even if it's just a short nap this year.Trust me.

Well, till next time...