Forest~Joyce

Had my dental today...You know the very colourful dental car that will go to secondary schools for a period of time every year...The dentists i got for the past two years are quite ok...For the one i got this year, he's friendly but too bad his skills are not...Almost everyone's gum bleed after dental and it's only one dentist...The one i got and the one everyone will get...Till now my teeth stills hurt lor...What to do??I don't go see dentist one cost very expensive and this one in school is like free...So no choice la, just have to face the fact...Actually ok la, at least i will get free fillings for my 2 newly decayed tooth due to the many chocolates and sweets i have eaten over the periond for about one year...

Haiz, i have to take part in the campcraft competiton...No choice...Is more like we don't have a choice lor...What to do???There's nothing we can do but just wish that it will come sooner so that we can get over it...The only good thing today is that the camp is postponed... :) So it won't clash with the boy's team campcraft comp on the 18 feb whereas the girls is on the 25... Good, then we can have more time to plan the camp le...Especially the nightwalk part which me and sb told jufri personally that we will plan that, which is always the most exciting part of the camp...

The latest np mag will only be out like next month, i can't wait to get my hands on it...Cause my article on the taiwan trip should most likely to be published in there...

Kkz...Blog till here today...

Wishes for year 2006:
Slim down/cut down weight before july.
Better results
Fringe grow to the length desired
Get lots of red packets on CNY
Pimples and blackheads be gone from my face
L1R5:10
Look good on grad ball(if there is)
Get a part-time job after 'o's
Buy full set of loki comics
(Thats all till now)

I damned pissed off today lor... How could they keep changing plans last minute... It's like we practice the drill display liao, juz need to amend the timing then can le then they say dun want, instead they let the cadets perform some combat skills thingy which i find it super lame lor... At least drill display better ma...We spent the whole sat morning to put it together de and now all our efforts went down the drain... I am not pissed by anyone, it's just that this is our last cca open house le, i just want to do something like the drill display and not walk around asking ppl to join np... It's like doing the drill display is very meaningful to me lor... At least i have done something for np on my last cca open house at anderson...
Never mind... At least still got the annual camp...I will do my best to plan it with the others to make the camp the best one ever, different from the ones in the past... Then i can easily step down feeling that i done my best...
Forget to mention, it's friday the 13th today...The legendary black friday...No wonder so much things happened today...

Bought a new school bag yesterday at power nine!! A pink one and it's those cloth type material, one bad thing is that it does not have many comparments but i still like it anyways...Hahax... Finally can change school bag le!! The school bag that i was using lasted for 1 and a half years and i have been using the same type of bag for 3 years!! What i meant is that it's two different bag that look totally the same except for the colours.I got the bags from my uncle who got them from free and he had loads at that time...Ended up with me using the ugly bag for 3 whole years of my secondary school life...It's not really ugly la, but it's not really suitable for girls lor... I have to do that coz my mom say since its free why waste??Somemore can save money...
I also realised something in this few years, everytime i want to buy something, i will keep asking my mom to buy but in the end i don't get it even if it's buying with my own money... It's like the more i ask the more she don't want buy give me. Now, i know how what to do to let her let me buy the stuff i want usually with my own money!! Look, don't that sound ridiculous?I can't even use my own money on my own will...I have to seek permission before i can use them...If i buy stuff secretly, normally will get scolded or the stuff will end up in the bin...I am like going to be 16 this year... If i am like primary sch ok la... But sec 4 liao lei...Still treat me like 3 year old... Want to go out also must depend on her mood...Haiz...I really need freedom, and now u guys know what is the freedom i need.
kkz, blog till here today...Late le, tmr still got sch...

A Tired Soul
I am getting tired these days...It's like I am tired of having to put up a smile everyday and act as if I am very happy every single day...Why is it always to be me who's the one to be a listening ear to my friends and I am the one who gives advices most of the time not easy to be able to do all these, it's very tiring as time goes by.
Finally, I can feel the stress, in the past I just ignore the stress but not now.This time round the stress is just too much to handle...I am confused as time goes by...I don't know what I am doing...I need to find a way to let out my stress or else I am going to break down soon...I really need someone to listen to my problems and help me with them I doubt that there's anyone who can help me with this as I don't think there's anyone who can understand what I meant.No one will be able to understand the life I am going through.No one can understand how I feel...
I am just a nobody...I am not needed, I am just there for convenience.Even if i am gone, no one will notice, life will still go on for the others.The world will continue to go round the axis.This is just so sad, don't you guys think so?