Forest~Joyce

I knew this would happen...It will never stop...Again and again...I fell into the darkness...Maybe i never did get out of the darkness...Maybe it's just my illusion that i was in the 'light'.

Over the years, i came to realised a fact...I am born to suffer.From the very moment where the presence of my life is detected, i am destined to have an ill-fated life.

Seriously, the numerous times i tried to end my sufferings was meaningless.I admit it, i am nothing but a coward...I never dared to use enough strength...I never dared to just jump...I always gave myself time for someone to pull me away...

I tried to forget everything and tried to lead a normal life outside there...I acted like nothing has ever happened on the outside...As time goes by, it seem that i am leading 2 different lives...Although both are not the real me...

She is lost and can never be found ever again...From the day she found out that she's nothing but a tool...A tool that a woman used to try to make her man stay...A tool that failed it's purpose...Nothing but a useless tool...A life that should not exist at all...Her heart is cold when she realised this fact...She decided to escape as far as possible and she succeeded, living me in the darkness... I missed her...The pure-hearted little girl with the vibrant smile...

I wished to join her but i have to lived on...I will never to silly things to hurt myself again.I am going to live a life here and prove them wrong...Or maybe i should say, all i wanted is revenge...