Had training today...Was supposed to be a campcraft training but it was changed to a usual training instead so we had a so called lecture on uniform entiqutte and then drills for bout one and a half hours near to two then we have mass interaction...Then the juniors dimissed while us the seniors stayed back to have a debrief which we din have for ages( when it is only ourselves la)... After that when going home that time, were told that usher duty is cancelled due to dunno whatever reason.Quite sad la. coz cannot wear the white gloves to go with our uniforms which now have some new badges on...Hahax, cannot act cool le... However, cancel le also good la, at least dunnid wake up as early as 5am to prepare...Can sleep more...
Haiz, have to plan for cca open house le, dun really know what to do lor...We dun have that kind of experience and we are also not quite sure about what we should do also.Worse to worse, this time the cca open house np only got a booth only lor, no campcraft nor drill display ba... Haiz who knows?? Well, it's a different case if it's about the annual school camp, most of us girls are looking forward to it... I want to plan about the nightwalk and if can best make it 3 day 2 nights instead of 2 days 1 night.You see, if more days then can plan more activities ma, can also make it more fun and exciting and different from the past camps. Anywayz, now talk about camp too early le, muz concentrate on cca open house coz it is more important for the time being...
Oh yar must not forget the joke of today's training...You see at first we dunno usher duty cancelled, so i called Siew Boon to ask if she's coming tmr as she was unwell today, then she say she not coming.I told Perrine then she go find someone to replace her. Then when she double check the list of who's on duty, Ming Yu say he also want to do and ask if he can replace somneone else like hairi. I still din know that Perrine found a replacement for Siew Boon so i say why not he replace her.It was like that, Me: Siew Boon lei??(meaning MY can replace her)Perrine:Oh Jian Kai take le.(not really the exact sentence but 'Jian Kai take le' are the exact words she said)Can you get the joke?? I doubt so...Hahax... Kkz, in our squad we like to spread rumours within our own that who like who those kind of thing and SB and JK was like either the first or second couple we 'rumoured' about.Of course we dun any how spread rumour de, is something which took place lead us to think that this so and so like that so and so... You see we are one bunch of slacking lamers...Hahax....
*Yawn*Blog till here today ba... Write very long le, should be enough for me not to blog for a few days ba...
P.S:Sadly, i think only one or two people read my blog so it does not really matter whether i update anot rite?
Feeling damn bored now, so decided to come up and blog about something that I read from the newspaper these two days...
The newspaper reported that lots of teenage girls is going on diet that is too over that lead them to a kind of illness which I don't know how to say in English but it is an illness where they will losses their appetite and will vomit out what they ate, they hate the sight of food especially fattening food and they also hate people who force them to eat.
These people even blog on ways to slim down, their plans of slimming down and they also encourage others to join them in the slimming down 'trend'.They even compete on who slimed down the most or fastest I think is all because they have this wrong concept of being slim means you are beautiful.
In my opinion, being healthy is the first step to beauty.Slimming down is not wrong but you must slim down in a healthy manner, or else you'll be the one who suffer. I also don't see what wrong in being plump or fat in other words. I myself is one plump person and is near to being overweight but i don't really mind, cause even though i am fat, i am tall at the same time.Actually heaven is fair, when you are given one bad point, you are given a good point at the same time too.

Of course i wanted to slim down too, i tried for a few times but i gave up.The methods i tried is too eat less and exercise more.You see, i am one lazy person and i don't exercise unless during PE lessons and trainings and maybe sometimes when i am too bored and have nothing to do. Another thing is that i love to eat, i tried to eat just 2 meals instead of 3 but i will always just stuff myself with snacks.Eventually, i gave up on slimming down and just let things take it's natural course.Who knows?Maybe i will just slim down one day in a healthy manner. :)
Twleve days din blog le... Quite eventful days especially three of them...

9 sep to 11 sep: ATC at Pula Ubin
Sec 3 Atc, dun really look forward to it at first but for the sake of the badge, i bravely faced the camp(hahax).The first day of the camp wasn't that exciting but the second day is enjoyable and excting...Done ATF which is high elements and supposingly the next activity is kayaking but count on our luck.The weather was bad and we are not alllowed to go into the sea.Instead, we ended up washing kayaks.
The campfire is quite fun this year, combined with the sec2s.Really, the sec2s do have more creativity then us sec3s.During the last day, we are all happy as we are going home soon and on the way home, we cheered loudly all the way from the campsite to the jetty.
It was a camp worth remembering and i think i'll never be able to forget it.

After the camp, school reopen... As it was term 4 and finals is like in 2 weeks time, we had remedials for most of the subjects...It was like so tiring lor... But to do?You can't expect me to hand in blank papers during the exams ma...Never mind, juz have to wait till 12 october is over and i'll will be free!!

Tomorrow have this np competition at chung cheng high yishun... Knowing the abilities if my squad mates, we have a low percentage of winning and a high percentage of losing.However, we will not be the last, the most is somewhere in the middle...

Okie, blog till here today... tired le, going to sleep soon...
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Your Beauty lies
in Nature. Down to earth, laid back and a natural
beauty. You have no need for
make-up or accessories that most others do. In fact
you most likely find them a
nuisance. You are probably a little tom-boyish in
your jeans and tees with a
great love for nature. You probably know more about
plants and animals than most
people and you'd rather spend your times outdoors
and in the sun, independent
and free. You can be a bit distant with people,
preferring the company of
animals over people, which isn't always the best
thing. You can be kind and
sweet, but not many see that side of you as you
often have misunderstandings
with people. You are very go-with-the-flow sort of
person and usually try to
avoid fights even if it means changing your opinion
or belief. Still, you are
you look your best actually without make-up and in
casual clothes. Very few can
say that. Be proud.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Earth, Wind Animal: Horse Color:
Green, Purple, Earth Tones Song:
The Memory Of Trees by Enya Expression: Cool

Emerald Mythological Creature: Fairy, Elf
Planet: Earth
Hair Color: Brown Eye Color:
Bright Green

"Horses love me. Cowboys fear me."

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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.

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Your power is: The ability to fly

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much for itself. Though you don't need wings
for this power,you can fly anyway. Some people
may consider it as telekinesis since they can
also fly, but you can't make material things
move like they can. This ability could be a
relaxing activity when you want to get away
from everyday troubles. Also it is good when
sneaking upon an enemy since it makes no sound.
When going over to the "dark side"
the power could be used to harrass and break
into building through windows etc.
You are quite similar to this power since you
like to have your head in the clouds.
Supernatural things amuse while ordinary life
does not. If your daydreaming has gotten a
little too far you might be zooned out all the
time, even when you are having a conversation.
Your desires and/or goals tend to be
unrealistic even if you know those would
probably never happen. Travelling is something
you would be interested in doing since seeing
exotic scenery fits with your fantasies of
escaping your plain life. You can also have
some creative ability (writer, playing an
instrumen etc) that interests you.
Negative aspects: The whole reason you
may be escaping life could be fear of being let
down by it. So if that would come to happen,
and an important dream had been crushed you
could get depressed.

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You are the Spirit of Love. You think around
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Whenever you want something you can get it due
to your fiery passion. You can make friends
quite easily, because peopole are attracted to
your obvious good nature. You will have no
trouble in finding a life partner and will be
very happy.

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Got back five papers le.I am really disappointed in myself and I felt sorry for my teachers for having a lazy and stupid student like me.Except for chemistry and Chinese teachers, cause I pass these two subjects.Anyway, I probably kill myself on the spot if I ever fail my Chinese.
Think should be getting back the other 4 papers back next week.Should be more disappointment for 2 of the subjects, SS and geog. I can't blame anyone else but myself...

Holidays are coming, looking forward to it cause it means i can go out with my friends, don't need to be coop up at home.Sometimes, i really dun feel like coming back to this home that dun feel 'warm'.It does not feel like a home sometimes,but i am satisfied with having a home to stay in, to go back to when i am tired after a whole day at school.

How could a home be 'warm' when it consists an incomplete family or should i say a broken family.On the outside, it looks complete but its already broken even before i was born.What can i say, anyway no one had the choice to decide which family you want to be born into right.But i can tell you for sure that i rather not be born into this family of mine now, or maybe i rather not be a human.Humans are too complicated, and its not easy to be one and there is never one perfect human...
I am talking crap here.............HAHA...
Slept at 5am this morning and woke up at 3pm, so i din go to the 3/3 outing.Anyway, i dun think i will be welcome by the boys and i dun really want to go.
I just dun understand why some people like to make fun of others.It's like they got nothing better to do or is it that they will die if they dun insult or make fun of others.Just say all you want, you this bunch of freaks.I won't be affected by your insults or anything you guys say, just be careful that you won't fall off the stairs or fall down while walking or get knocked down by a car when crossing the road or get hit by a volleyball or basketball while playing or get struck by the thunder for no reason or get hit by a falling flower pot or get choke while eating or drinking.Ok, this should be all this time, will write more when i could think what else can happen to such people.
lhlj signing off...
Had marksmanship today and yeah i PASSED!!71 points thats what i got.It takes 65 to pass and i PASSED OF COURSE.
When it was my turn to shoot, i was like very nervous and my heart is beating like 10000000000000 times per second.Joking only la, i will die if my heart beats so fast.Ok, back to what i want to say.Its like the first six rounds were ok, all six went into the box.Then the next six shots were not very good.Think one shout was out of the box.Well, that was nine metres...When i went over to the 15 metres to shoot the last six rounds and the target was like so far away.I can't see where the bullets went lor.
After shooting, went over to take my target board and i count.13 shots in the box and 2 out. 3 missing bullets, think they went off course.Not even on the target lor.But nevermind, i PASSED!!!Lai WeiHong was very pro man.He was the only one who got the full 90 points.It's like oh my god!!!How the hell did he do it.He say until like it was very easy like that.
Ok,thats all today...BYE!!
I am so happy!!!
lhlj signing off......

Another busy week is here.Lucky next week chinese new year.These few days really unlucky lor.Will not say why.
Maths test, got back the paper today.Really must go bang wall le.So many careless mistakes lor.Feel like slapping myself lor.Wonder how could i not be so careless next time, think it will be quite impossible.
Tomorrow got meeting, wonder how will the sec2s behave hope they will be good.Cause i will only be there to say a few lines and then go practise drills le.
I am totally obessed with marching nowadays.My marching sux but i love it anyway.So, must practise more to improve.Cause parade need to march so must march nicely or else not very good lor.
Ok, crap enough today le...
lhlj signing off...
The training for the NP parade is very tiring.Reached home at nine today,so late lor.However, go for the training can learn lots of new things la.That Jufri is totally lame today lor, OMG, he made us laugh like mad when we are on our way to the MRT.It is like he stopped there suddenly when he said he is walking the other way and me HL and Ash is like standing there and wondering why he stop there.Then i go and ask him and he pointed to me the signpost that has the word STOP on it.It's like... dunno how to say la.ANyway i just laughed like mad lor.
Yar, i saw that sgs guy at the training.Never thought that he will go lor and that hougang one.Well, its like one is so cute and the latter is so cool lor.I thought that i will only see them again at sec3 ATC.First saw them at sec2 ATC last year and the sgs guy is in my group and the hougang one is in HL's group.Then,saw them again at the SANA course and now see them at the training for the parade.Is like will see them every week for three months until the actual parade.
Ok, thats all today le.
I am going for the NPCC day parade.Which means that i will miss the trainings in school and go to the police academy to train for the parade instead.Going to miss about 13 trainings i think.Then also got CCA points.Hehe.I think i am lucky to be able to go as this is a once in a life time chance.There will not be any other chances for me to take part in the parade if i miss this chance.So, i decided to go though my drills are not very good.I like marching very much too although i don't really like static drills.Anyway, i am going for the parade.
Friday got two tests.Maths and geography.Think will surely do badly for one of them.Should be geography that i will do badly in as i don't really know that well on Foldings and Faultings.Yar, this friday first training for the parade, hope it will not be too tiring.
Ok, thats all today.

I just have this feeling that the whole world is going against me today.Why are there so many hypocrites and backstabbers in this world??I don't understand why people like to be like this.Yar, i knew that people often wear a mask to hide their true self but some of them puts on a nice mask to cover up their hideos face.It does not matter though but i just can't understnd why people tend to believe such people without finding out the hideous face behind the beautifully made mask.
Well, i think i must be on fever again, talking bout such things.*sigh*Suddenly felt stressful because of all the things happened in the past few days.What had happened to me!!So much homework, so much things to handle and so much problems for me to solve.What am i supposed to do??
Ok this is about all today...
Joyce signing off...
Yeah, my fever had gone but there is still cough and flu for me.Well, i am really bored these days.Nothing much to do except homework, sleeping and eating.Well,i do not count those hours studying aas things to do as it is a daily rountine for many people.I am sure that if we are given a choice, no one would like to go to school and study every day for 6-8 hours.
I am really BORED, never ever had i been this bored last year.Anyway, i am a BoReD PeRsOn...BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How i hope i can have something fun to do.*Sigh*
There are 35 'unlucky' people get into np this year.Think will be busy after the sec ones came in.Cause have to plan for POP.We sec 3s have to plan it and to supervise sec 1s and 2s and also have our own performance to handle.At least i rather do these things than have nothing to do at all and be BORED.
This post is written by a BORED person as you can see...

I have fever, temperature 39.3...

I want to die le.Have fever, cough and flu.I am serious about it, i am really sick.At about 6 plus i felt that my forehead is hot then i go take my temperature.My temperature was 37.7 at first and 37.8 after an hour.I thought it will be ok after a sleep but i am wrong.Now my temperature is 39.3.OMG!!!High Fever!!!My body was like on fire.Then my legs is like no energy to walk but still can walk la...Think will be ok tomorrow la,no panadol to eat only got coke with salt to drink.Maybe after another good long sleep then i will be fine.Now my head very hot...How come the temperature won't go down????
Actually i think that i am sick because i ate too much chocolate.Maybe sitting just below the cold air-con was another reason to my sickness.Why am i so unlucky to get sick??This morning during CCA Open House that time i was ok what, how come get home then sick le???I hardly got sick lor.Must be retribution,haiz...
Okay, this will be all today...Want to go and rest le... Good night.
Joyce signing off...
Today can say it's an official first day of school as we started to study only today.Done quite a lot of work today.Written a chinese composition and got chemistry homework. Done half of the chem work le.I think i really must work hard le and i am serious this time.If not i will die le if i don't study this year.

Well, i written alot on my last entry.I just have to much feelings to pour out.I am glad to have some ppl who care for me though, i thought that no one would...

Ermm,i want to apologise to someone though there is 99% chance that you will not see this.I am sorry i have done that.I am partly at fault too not only her.

Ok, thats all today.
Joyce signing off...

Well, its like 12 plus in the morning now.Think will sleep at about 3-4 plus ba.Eating chocolates now, i just can't resist them when i want them.
Just finished reading the blogs of some 2/4'04 ppl.Had many feelings and thoughts.I regret not trying to interact more with all the ppl in 2/4'04.I think i have to blame myself for that.I just don't know why.Ever since pri 5 or maybe earlier, i have been like that.I have lost myself since then.
I am just contented to have a few close friends.In my pri 5 and 6 year, i was lucky to have Siew Hwee with me and some others.Got better in secondary school.Had more friends.However, there is still something missing.Its not the real me who are having these friends.Its the me who is trying to hide or maybe protect the real me who is having these friends.
Nobody knows the real me, not even myself.I have lost myself and i think that it is very very difficult to find the real me back.I was like thinking why is this happening to me, why can't i just have a normal life, a normal family and why can't i be a normal person.
Sometimes there are many things that you can't bring yourself to say as you don't want anyone to know what the hell has happened to you.The results is that you have to suffer alone. It does not matter when you are alone.Sometimes when you are alone, you are more comfortable and you don't suffer as much.
Sometimes i was thinking why am i here un this world?Did heaven sent me here to suffer?I thought of leaving this world for many times thought its less than 10 times.However, i don't have the courage to do it.Whenever i think of leaving, i will be thinking that i should not leave so early, i should stay on and experience life.Its like i am still so young and i don't know what is life yet, how could i leave like that.If i am not wrong, thats the real me telling the lost me all the thing to prevent me from leaving.
Ppl reading this might think that i am mad or just writing crap but i am serious.If you guys knew what i had done in the past, you will be miles away from me.Maybe you don't believe it but don't believe in what you see and heard,believe in what you feels.
I miss myself,the real me.
To evon, jean , xiangjun and lin xiu,
Things will not be the same from now onwards.Though we can still stay together, but things will really never be the same.So treasure what we have now or one day we will find that what we used to have is gone.Lets try to keep us together ok?I will really miss you guys now that we are in different classes.Though you guys are still near me, i will still miss you guys like we are in different parts of the world.I hope that our friendship will stay firm always.
Came back from the camp today.Quite tired cause lack of sleep.Actually not lack of sleep la just did not sleep well.The camp quite fun and it is really a leisure camp to me.I think i enjoyed the nature walk and the abseiling the most la.It's also very lucky that we have dorms to sleep in though is sleep on the floor.Then almost everyone got sleeping bag to sleep in and i don't have one.So it's very cold during the night for me. But i think its very good le la got a roof over my head.Cause i am used to sleeping on floors during camps le.
*Sigh*Tomorrow must go school early in the morning, don't really feel like going to school.Still got NP training somemore.I just have this uneasy feeling for this year.Somehow i feel that i am not going to have a good time this year.
Now my idoit brother is nagging and nagging me to give him use the com.He is using a fake axe those got air inside one to hit me.24 years old already still so childish.Haiz...Never mind since that i am used to it le...This is one of the advantages to have 3 brothers.You don't like this one still got another two.Lucliky This idoit 2nd brother of mine is quite nice though he's quite lame.Better than my eldest and third brother.
Well thats all for today.Must return the computer to my 2nd brother, cause the computer he buy one so he want to use cannot say no...
So, Joyce is signing off now......