Forest~Joyce

Grad ball is tomorrow!!!Really look forward to it...Hope it will be fun.Best if i win something from the lucky draw.
Haiz, four years just past like that...I can't believe i am going to graduate from sec sch so fast...Would definitely miss my friends as we would be going different schools next year...Haiz...This is life....

Finally, the long awaited day has arrived!!!!!!!!
O's have ended!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wohooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am just so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Freedom have finally arrived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's time for fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can burn all the textbooks and contribute to the haze...Hahax....

It had been nearly two months since i blogged here...Haiz...In the midst of prelims now...I think i am going to flunked it as well lor...Haiz...Well, i am going to resume real blogging only after the 'o's...So this blog is going to be left alone till then...

Long time never blog le...HAiz...Prep prelim over le but prelim coming soon...Die le die le...Worse still, tues got "O" LEVEL ENGLISH ORAL!!!! It's the real thing liao...God bless me...Dun let me have sore throat on that day...After that day, no voice also can....Choy!Choy!Best is keep healthy till after 'o's and grad ball...Then i dun mind even if i got sick afterwards....Haiz, where got like that curse myself one...HAha...I siao liao....
DOts............................

It been one month since i last blog...Not much time these days...Prep Prelims just finished...Some of the papers are killer...Haiz...Doubt will do well this term too...
I started reading this manga named NANA like two weeks ago and i totally fall in love with the story.It's something like a romance but also got funny parts so i'll encourage people who are interested to go an read it.
This week broke le...Shared presents for four people in one shopping trip...2 belated and 2 early b'day presents...Not to mention my other friends whose birthday coming up in august.Haiz, soon i'll announce bankrupt...
Will blog till here today...Cya...

Went to the police week carnival today.It's like no difference from normal pasar malam la...But since we have the coupons, why waste it?? Arkar was playing this games which you have to shoot down a small duck beside a prize to get it...He was like trying his luck for a radio control car but end up wasted his money.
Then we went to look at the exhibitons by different deparment of the police force. We went into the fire engine, then the police coast guard ship named tiger ray if i remember correctly then we went to the prison car which contains cells for prisoners...We nearly locked Arkar in one of the cells...Hahax...
Overall the day quite fun la...'Cope' a lot of freebies at the exhibits...Hahax...It's defintely worth the ten dollars we spent on the coupons...

Our Pass-Out Parade was yesterday.Finally, it's our turn to step down le...The parade was quite simple, cause no drill diaplay and all that...Never mind, at least we got to throw our berets!! Then, it was the traditional boot stepping craze...At first i ran away while screaming at the sight of my juniors for fear of them stepping my boots...I managed to protect my boots till dinner time when an ex- nco came and stepped on my boots.After that, i went crazy and went around stepping everyone's else boots.It was fun, i can tell you that.The buffet was nice, especcially the chocolate cream puffs.
After that, it's the farewell party.The sec2s dance and the sec3s showed us this very funny video.It was named the 'scary movie 5' and they show scenes from the eye 10 then they react it out themselves, there is also one on shutter.It was like super funny la...It should be named the funny movie 1 instead.Hahax. Then we sing farewell song to mr tan as he was leaving the school soon too.After that prize presentation.Got a very nice card for my sec 2 squad and a happy house handphone accessory form the sec 3s...
Then it was the end...
I have finally stepped down and now an ex-nco...Haha!!But i think i will miss the friday trainings cause used to it le...Friday always go home very late de...
I believe i will miss the good old times i had spent in NPCC with my squadmates and juniors...

haiz, very bored nowadays... Nothing much to do at home de...Haiz, i am now so mad that i think that school is much better than home...At least there is somthing to do in school...haiz, very sianz...I am gonna die of boredom sooner or later...How i wish the 'o' levels come faster and end faster so i will be free of the burden too... Arghh!!!Please, someone come and save me from this boredom!!!

I am finally 16!!Had a great day yesterday!!Went to watch Ice Age 2 with HL and BY.The movie was great!Also took neoprints together,all turned out nice and pretty!!

Had swensen ice cream cake this year as my birthday!Oh yummy!I am just so happy!!

Too bad i hurt my back on friday...Or else everything would be just perfect.But then, nothing is perfect in this world.So, i am already very satisfied. :D

THANKS TO:Hwee Li for the puzzle, i loved it.
Lin Xiu for the Pooh Bear, it's cute.
Li Ting, Shat Yin and Sort Cheng for the bookmark, it's wonderful.
And to those who are giving me belated presents, which i will only update after i receive my presents! :P

Common tests are coming once more…This time round; we will be sitting for the tests in the hall. This is to enable us to experience how will it be like when it comes to the ‘o’ levels. Just a few more days and the battle will begin…
I must really buck up for this term’ common tests…Because, I want my Colours Award!!! So my target L1R5 this term is below 20 and by hook or by crook, I must get it!!!

Ten more days, and I’ll become 16…It’s the age where we teenagers will begin to mature and slowly learn how to become an adult…I seriously can’t believe that time passes so quickly…It seem that yesterday was my first that in secondary school and yet, I am in sec 4 now…Soon, I will be in my thirties and forties and I will be like hey, I thought I am like 16 yesterday? People are always surprised at how quickly they grew old…No one is an exception…

Standing down on Friday…That will be my last NPCC training…I will surely miss NP de…

Haiz...Going to stand down soon le...So sad...Even though i did not managed to get promoted like the others...I think i will miss the wonderful times i had spent in Np...Life in secondary school won't be so exciting and vibrant without all the events that happened due to Np...Now that i am stepping down...I kind of have to sad feeling lor...Well, anyways i will eventually leave one day even if i dun step down now...I will also leave the school soon after graduation...Haiz...I dun want to stand down!!!! But sadly, i have to now concentrate on my studies for my future...
Well, lets all work hard for our future...

It had been sometime since i last blog...Haiz, soon this blog will be temporary closed until i finished the 'o's... Term 2 has already started and one and a half weeks have pass by already...Time really does flies...
The Np camp is over too...We will be standing down in a month's time...After that have to focus on studies le...The camp is counted successful la, though there are some problems here and there...I am so proud of myself in planning such a wonderful nightwalk. XD Of course my dear squadmates did provide some ideas to improve the original plan.The camp is really fun too though we did get much sleep... Haiz, after we stand down...We would no longer have such wonderful time anymore...We won't even have life lor...We will be mugging till the end of the 'o's...
Now, i am sure everyone can feel the stress le...Stress can do bad and good to you...It really depends on how you handle it... haiz...
Well, blog till here today...Till next time then!

Sometimes i wonder, why does humans only exists on earth and not some other planets too?? Why are we born as humans and not an animal?? Why do humans speak and not animals??? Don't tell me that humans are much more smarter than animals...In fact, i think that some animals are smarter then us humans??
One more thing...Why do we have to study??To gain knowledge, invent more things that are highly advanced in technology?Or just study for the sake of it and ermm find a job, earn money, settle down with a family, retirement, enjoy life while waiting for it to end?? Actually, most of the inventions made by man might be beneficial to us humans but not the earth...There this global warming, air pollution, water pollution and many more...Don't people realised that the smarter they are, the faster earth is near destruction? Is like we are digging graves for the future generation...We might all be dead already, if the days really comes when the earth is destroyed by the hands of humans, who thought they are doing all that to improve life...
What exactly is the purpose of our existance???
Can anyone tell me??

Holidays!!!!!!!!!!Yeah!!!!!!!
But then it only one week long, and we have loads of homework and remedial lessons...Haiz, better then nothing...
Went to St nicks funfair last sat...Wa, st nicks really very huge lor, HL and me nearly got lost there...Actually, wasted 10 bucks there...The games is ok le, still got arcade but the prizes are very practical...
Then went Kbox yesterday...The 2 to 7 time slot... Sing until siao lor... 5 long hours...Then the room is like so damn cold that we are all freezing...In the end we chose those fast songs and then jump around like a bunch of mad girls to keep ourselves warm...Even though we nearly froze to death it's still very fun...Hahax... Now have to wait till either june hols or after 'o's then can go again...

Haven done any homework yet...Tmr must start doing le...Or else how to finished it in time???Oh yar still got Ssgt thoery test on friday...Haiz what a busy holiday week...

The term is coming to an end soon...Results are still the same, i dun see any improvement except for passing my chemistry and maths...But then physics is a killer to me...One of them has to be the killer subject after i drop my a-maths... English is the murderer of the term as about 75% of the sec 4 cohort failed it if i not wrong... So, improving in 2 subjects and deproving in 2 subjects equals to no change...
Oh yar, there will be march games instead of april games this year...Bet lots of people are very happy where they knew there's still games no matter march or april...Not much of a difference anyways... Well, my class was excited over it as they wanted to ruled the now march games this year... Din affect me much as i am not in it and i won't be asked anyway...I am a bad sportsmen you see...I sux in sports though i do love sports except for running, jogging or any thing similar...

I made up my mind on what i want to study in future...I think i now have a five years plan for my life in my mind now... That's good right?? They always said that it's good to always plan ahead...
Just ate 5 slices of pizza...Oh, talk about losing weight and yet i am stuffing pizza into my stomach...Can you believe that?? Never ming, it's once in a while, and when was the last time i ate pizza' huts pizza?? Thats like dunno how many eons ago... Well, not mentioning other pizza like the canandian one and thosse toast yourself kind la...But i can say that i hardly eat pizza...So it dun really matter right...I just have to excercise more to get rid of those calories i gained from those yummy pizzas....
Oh, i'll blog till here today...Till next time then...XD

The photo is taken after the campcraft comp...Just fell like posting it so here it is. :)
See, Ash so extra, should be the girls take only then he come join in... Look at all the happy faces, i can't believe i am going to stand down in two months time... It's only during these trainings, competition that we enjoyed ourself so much...You guys know what? I think that the friendship we made in cca is much stronger then the ones we made with our classmates... It's like i've been through more with my squadmates then with my classmates lor... Haiz, i will surely miss the good old times when i have passed out... For a few times, i used to regret joining NP due to the tuft trainings, but now i no longer regret as i gained much more than i lost....

The competition is finally over!!Yeah!!We tried our best and managed to finished making everything and most importantly, raise the flag!!!Hahax!!This shows that we are better then the guys.Well, of course it din went smooth for us le...First the name list got problem then shahida cannot take part...Then during the competition, the clove hitch drop out and have to tie again...Wasted quite abit of time lor...Never mind, at least we have everything done though not in the best conditions.Oh yar and the camp is postponed to term 2 week one friday and saturday, got more time to plan and refine everything.

Two more weeks...Just two more weeks and we are able to rest for just one week...Yet, they have to call us back for remedial...Why must they deprived us of our rest?

Got flu again...Dun understand why nowadays so many people get sick easily...Haiz...Got headache somemore...But is there time to rest?No, there is no time for us to rest...On two days we have remedial till 6 and another day have cca till 6 too.The remaining two days is for homework...Of course there's still weekend but it is also used for homework as on some weekdays we are too tired to do anything but sleep...When can we breathe?They are adding stress on us lor...

But what can we do?

Oh god, why are you doing this to me??Why must you throw me a problem every time i thought things are going smooth for me??Have i not suffered enough for these 16 years??Why? Why are you doing this do me?What wrong have i done??I really dun understand...What did i exactly done wrong to deserve all this?Please someone tell me...I really want to know....
Over the years, i realised that i am destined to suffer in the environment i am in...But i always thought that as i grow up, things will get better...I am very wrong in thinking that way...Things get morer and more complicated as we grew up...When we grew up, we will know more and think more and of course worry more...We will faced many problems that when as a child, you never thought you will face...
What are all these??This is life...

Changed my blogskin finally!!! Cloud is just too nice for me to not change my blogskin to one that featured him...Hahax...This one came with nice background music...Nice right?
I just love cloud!!!

Haiz, the guys did not manage to finish making all the structures and did not raise the flag too...I think they were too nervous liao...Next week is our turn lor... We got more time then them but it's only 2 more minutes...Hope we are able to at least finished the flagstuff...
Camp also coming soon le, haven yet decided on the movie, night walk locations set le but not finalised yet...Haiz, there's just so much to do...
3 more weeks to march holidays, how i look forward to the one week hols...Just dunno why sec4 life is so tiring...
I got it right, i did not managed to get my A1 thought it's still an A....But it's very big difference lor...Felt like banging my head against the wall lor....

Tomorrow getting back chinese 'o' level result....Hopes of getting A1 is gone le lor...The most i can get A2 only ba...Haiz, means must work hard for the higher mother tongue paper to get my A1 for chinese....These few weeks got common tests, haiz...I felt like i just got back to school from the hols like that...Haiz...
V's day next week...Also known as friendship day... Still dunno what to buy for hl they all...Bought von, xj and sb's present le...Let's hope next year won't be just friendship day to me....Hahax...And of course to my dear lao po a.k.a hl and to my other friends too...But i believe i have to wait a few more years before i can not just celebrate it as friendship day...Hahax...
Hmm, actually really not much to blog lor...So blog till here today ba...

Haiz, yesterday no half day...Still need to study for lessons...Concert as usual...Sianz... Best dressed male teacher is mr ang...He really dressed nicely..........................
Went sarah house after school, played with her new tablet... It 's so...Can't find any words to describe it...It's just awesome!!!And's it's to scale...Wow...Had loads of fun with it...Played kingdom hearts 1&2, the graphics in kh2 is just great....We also watched ff7 advent children while having lunch...Cloud is as cool as always!!!Just loved his eyes...
Blog till here today....Cya!!
Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Today, we discussed about the upcoming annual camp, distribute the work and star planning.I got the post of night walk IC!!!Yeah!!!This is something i want to plan for a very long time...Hehe, i will create the most exciting night walk in anderson npcc history.It will be very different from the night walks in the past where u just have to follow a route, write your name one the board and stuff like that...It will be more exciting and different, it will be an adventurous walk...SB will plan it with me and of course with the help of others...I just can't wait for the cadets to try out the night walk i planned!!!
CNY coming!!!Hope to get many red packets!!!

Had my dental today...You know the very colourful dental car that will go to secondary schools for a period of time every year...The dentists i got for the past two years are quite ok...For the one i got this year, he's friendly but too bad his skills are not...Almost everyone's gum bleed after dental and it's only one dentist...The one i got and the one everyone will get...Till now my teeth stills hurt lor...What to do??I don't go see dentist one cost very expensive and this one in school is like free...So no choice la, just have to face the fact...Actually ok la, at least i will get free fillings for my 2 newly decayed tooth due to the many chocolates and sweets i have eaten over the periond for about one year...

Haiz, i have to take part in the campcraft competiton...No choice...Is more like we don't have a choice lor...What to do???There's nothing we can do but just wish that it will come sooner so that we can get over it...The only good thing today is that the camp is postponed... :) So it won't clash with the boy's team campcraft comp on the 18 feb whereas the girls is on the 25... Good, then we can have more time to plan the camp le...Especially the nightwalk part which me and sb told jufri personally that we will plan that, which is always the most exciting part of the camp...

The latest np mag will only be out like next month, i can't wait to get my hands on it...Cause my article on the taiwan trip should most likely to be published in there...

Kkz...Blog till here today...

Wishes for year 2006:
Slim down/cut down weight before july.
Better results
Fringe grow to the length desired
Get lots of red packets on CNY
Pimples and blackheads be gone from my face
L1R5:10
Look good on grad ball(if there is)
Get a part-time job after 'o's
Buy full set of loki comics
(Thats all till now)

I damned pissed off today lor... How could they keep changing plans last minute... It's like we practice the drill display liao, juz need to amend the timing then can le then they say dun want, instead they let the cadets perform some combat skills thingy which i find it super lame lor... At least drill display better ma...We spent the whole sat morning to put it together de and now all our efforts went down the drain... I am not pissed by anyone, it's just that this is our last cca open house le, i just want to do something like the drill display and not walk around asking ppl to join np... It's like doing the drill display is very meaningful to me lor... At least i have done something for np on my last cca open house at anderson...
Never mind... At least still got the annual camp...I will do my best to plan it with the others to make the camp the best one ever, different from the ones in the past... Then i can easily step down feeling that i done my best...
Forget to mention, it's friday the 13th today...The legendary black friday...No wonder so much things happened today...

Bought a new school bag yesterday at power nine!! A pink one and it's those cloth type material, one bad thing is that it does not have many comparments but i still like it anyways...Hahax... Finally can change school bag le!! The school bag that i was using lasted for 1 and a half years and i have been using the same type of bag for 3 years!! What i meant is that it's two different bag that look totally the same except for the colours.I got the bags from my uncle who got them from free and he had loads at that time...Ended up with me using the ugly bag for 3 whole years of my secondary school life...It's not really ugly la, but it's not really suitable for girls lor... I have to do that coz my mom say since its free why waste??Somemore can save money...
I also realised something in this few years, everytime i want to buy something, i will keep asking my mom to buy but in the end i don't get it even if it's buying with my own money... It's like the more i ask the more she don't want buy give me. Now, i know how what to do to let her let me buy the stuff i want usually with my own money!! Look, don't that sound ridiculous?I can't even use my own money on my own will...I have to seek permission before i can use them...If i buy stuff secretly, normally will get scolded or the stuff will end up in the bin...I am like going to be 16 this year... If i am like primary sch ok la... But sec 4 liao lei...Still treat me like 3 year old... Want to go out also must depend on her mood...Haiz...I really need freedom, and now u guys know what is the freedom i need.
kkz, blog till here today...Late le, tmr still got sch...

A Tired Soul
I am getting tired these days...It's like I am tired of having to put up a smile everyday and act as if I am very happy every single day...Why is it always to be me who's the one to be a listening ear to my friends and I am the one who gives advices most of the time not easy to be able to do all these, it's very tiring as time goes by.
Finally, I can feel the stress, in the past I just ignore the stress but not now.This time round the stress is just too much to handle...I am confused as time goes by...I don't know what I am doing...I need to find a way to let out my stress or else I am going to break down soon...I really need someone to listen to my problems and help me with them I doubt that there's anyone who can help me with this as I don't think there's anyone who can understand what I meant.No one will be able to understand the life I am going through.No one can understand how I feel...
I am just a nobody...I am not needed, I am just there for convenience.Even if i am gone, no one will notice, life will still go on for the others.The world will continue to go round the axis.This is just so sad, don't you guys think so?

First post of the year 2006!!! A crucial year for people who are taking 'o' levels this year. I just have to remind myself that 'o' levels is coming soon, so i will put my heart and soul into studying.
I realised that i had this layout for ages, but who cares, i love this layout and so far i can't find another one to replace this, so peeps, you will have to bear with the same old stuff though it a new year, a new beginning but certains things still remained the same no matter how many years passed, don' you guys agree?
Well, today was the second day of school, and the first official day for lessons.First thing in the morning, got to know some bad news but well since you have to go on with life no matter what why not just look on to the bright side?So who cares if i got demoted from Band 3a to 3b, anyway it's just a few marks difference though that few marks make a big difference.At least my eng teacher is not the current band 3a teacher, not saying the she not a good teacher, she is a good one but experience tells me that she's one boring teacher.Anyways, i knew ages ago that i am weak in the english language and yet my dream is to be an author, now how ironic is that?

Got quite good maths and chem teacher and chinese remains the same.History, mr yong as usual, ss, quite a good teacher too.Geog, got a teacher famous for producing A1s, hope that apply to me too.Now, guess who teaching my class for physics???*Drumrolls*My class is so damn lucky to have the DM to teach us physics this year.I can imagine the guys getting caught for not being properly attired, missing nametags, hair and all kind of stuff every physics lesson now.Guess how fun is that?Hahax...

Currently, sitting at the second row, right in front of the board, so should be able to concentrate more on my work right, of course i make sure i do that...Let's see it's like 9 to 10 months to 'o' levels... That is not much you know, so i dun really have time for fun this year, except once in a while...You see, it's not easy to have a break even if it's just a short nap this year.Trust me.

Well, till next time...